I think I may have found a new friend

So yesterday at church I was sitting by myself... something I have been feeling more comfortable with lately... back in the day I always made sure I found someone who was sitting alone to sit by... but you know what... I really don't mind sitting by myself... maybe it is selfish? I don't have to worry about anyone else, etc. Just enjoy my time at church... ya know?

Anyways... yesterday I started thinking of how shy I must be getting... or at least how I'm becoming more reserved then my usual self... maybe because I'm in a new ward where no body really knows me and because of that I am trying to be more careful about what I say and do as to not make a bad impression? Since I feel I've made several already

So I was sitting in church thinking about how I needed a friend... and I decided maybe I could pray for a friend to make at church... but it seems like everyone has kids and well I don't... so I'm not in the mommy club yet and there aren't too many couples in our situation... until I noticed Lauren or is it Laura?

She and her husband have been married for 2 years... sweet... they pass the non newly wed couple test.... they don't have kids... score again.... and she was wearing some rockin cowboy boots... jackpot! Just kidding about the boots, but they did look fantastic

So I decided to make her my new friend... and low and behold... she is perfect... she goes to garage sales every Saturday and so I'm going to start tagging along and she is going garage shopping this Saturday... I think I will give her a call and see if she wants to go together

It's Celeste's Fault

That is sure to get her attention....



I know you've seen these teenie bopper magazines before and they can be some of the most annoying things ever. How do they suck me in? When I see one in the aisle at a store I try to sneak a peek without looking too pathetic. I wouldn't know who any of these people were if it were for my so up to date and young 14 year old sister Celeste... who I just love to death!

The thing is I think she is out growing some of this stuff... but I get obsessed with some of it... like when Taylor Swift came out... still love her of course, but seriously I would have her music in my head for hours until I couldn't take it any more



But now I learned about Justin Bieber - isn't he just the cutest thing ever! And boy can that boy sing a song. No wonder he is a heart throb for those young girls... look at that baby face. And once again... I can't get his song out of my head... I keep dancing around in my chair at work and people started looking at me funny

Hoocked on foniks work ed for mi (think Brian Regan)

As you may have noticed... I'm terrible at spelling and to make matters worst, I don't re-read what I write before I post. Call it lazy, I type too fast, or what you want... I just haven't cared about it here on my blog since I see it as more of a journal, and I don't proof read that... so why this?

When I told my Dad that I can't spell he informed me it isn't my fault. How you ask... well he said when I was a child I was in a "special class" which was trying some "new and improved" reading/writing system.

I didn't think much of it, until I realized that these grammatical errors could potentially prevent me from being a candidate as a mother for some birth mothers... Several people have mentioned that if it came down to two couples and one had better grammar then the other...they would go with them... yikes

I know, I know. I do proof the important things in life, but not my blog... but what if a birth mother saw this... what would she think? I care about my grammar when it matters, but does this? I don't write this for you all... okay maybe a little, but it is mostly for me...

Then again... I do plan on making this into a book for my future posterity... so maybe I should slow down and rethink how I say what I say

So how did I do.... did I make any mistakes?

How many of you cringe when you read my blog... wait don't answer that... answer this

How many of you still love me despite my bad grammar, writing, and overly openness?

the luckiest

i can't get over how lucky i am to have merrill in my life. (you don't have to read this if you hate reading about other people's marriage - trust me...there are times I can't even read what others think about thier spouse before I hurl, but i'm writing this for me and him, and hey it's my blog and plus i'm going to turn it into a book and i wanted to write down how i feel right now, because i'm not always so full of love towards my husband and i want to remember how i'm feeling)

it's hard to believe we started our marriage on a ruff patch and looking back it was the best thing for our marriage

i'm sure most know, since i don't hold it back, but i hated being married when i was first married. it was such an adjustment for me and i missed my freedom. it was something that i really struggled with and some days i just wanted to quit as in take a break and come back later when things were my way

very unrealistic of me... dang those hollywood movies

we got through it with some marriage counseling and it seriously improved our marriage ten fold! through a better understanding of God's plan for his children... knowing that marriages were meant to and can work... that God wants all of his children to be happy... and that God didn't make marriages to fail... i knew merrill and i could make our marraige work

on nov 7th we celebrated 6 years of marriage and i wish i could even begin to explain how lucky i feel to have merrill in my life. i feel like sometimes we are newly weds again and going through this adoption process has helped us grow so much

actually it's been a huge blessing for us to have so much time to build our relationship together... we've been able to do so much together to help us stregthen our marriage... namely attend the temple... that place is a miracle worker for us

i was reading this other blog and this girl was talking about all that her husband does around the house and i thought merrill does that too... he cleans and cooks and fixes all the things on my honey do lists and he makes me laugh and he just loves me

i feel so lucky.... and i want to shout it to the world because over our 6 years of marriage this feeling i have right now makes me want to marry my husband all over again... you know what i mean?

today was a hard day until....

I saw this....



I laughed and I cried... I'm exhausted and it has been such a hard couple of days and it is catching up with me. I can't even think at work and with everything that is going on I just have felt beatten down. Merrill is so thoughtful - I mean... he bought me a snuggie... of all things... he's just the greatest... i so love him oh so much



i just wanted to write this so I could remember this little moment

ps it really is a nice thing to have around and bonus - it came with a free reading light... so now I don't have to keep merrill up when I can't fall asleep

#20 Check

Complete Adoption Paperwork

this paperwork has kept me up for many nights and I can't tell you want a relief it is to have it completed... but this is just the beginning. We have so much more to do... but this is a milestone worth documenting

I really don't like

any of the baby bedding out there... and the one that I do is completely white... that is just asking to be stained so I don't want to go with that...

I want something unisex, but they are all so boring, I want color, but I'm not sure how much...

Arg... it's giving me a head ache

Mary