I know I should be grateful.... but

So it's that time of year when people are extra grateful and here I am trying with all my might to be happy for the things I have in life.... but really I'm just sorta blah

And I'm just going to say it .... I am so sick of photography right now.  I keep asking myself why in the world am I doing this?  It has taken over my life this month with the holiday family pictures and I just want to cry - crawl in bed - sleep for a long time - get up and not have to think about it ever again.  But I can't right now.... and really it has really only taken up my evenings because when Max is awake that is our time together and I'm grateful for that

Merrill's advice - suck it up - this is really the first and ONLY time I've ever been this busy and once this month is over and the first two weeks of December go by I will have nothing to do photography wise

So I'm thankful for that.  In the meantime I just have to get through this month and learn from it....

Which means that I won't be doing this much next year....period

And I'm grateful for that too.